Because I'm curious

I believe that we all are born with talent. Pero minsan, curious lang talaga tayo sa mga bagay. Tulad ko. 

I PLAY THE PIANO. Neither did I enroll in a music school nor did I get piano lessons when I was a kid, ngunit dahil curious ako, nag-aral ako. All. By. My. Self. Below is one of the cover vids I made.

I swear I'm not bragging but let me reef off to you something I'm really proud of. It was my cousin who had piano lessons. I was the most envious person on earth kasi gustung-gusto ko rin matuto but I haven't had the opportunity. After she graduated, I asked her to teach me whatever she has learned from her music professors. USER! Hindi naman. OPPORTUNIST! Hindi rin. Kasi hindi naman niya ako tinuruan. Tinugtugan lang niya ako nang walang humpay! So I decided to grab her music books and I buried myself in them! Nag-aral ako. Ayun, paggising ko isang araw, piyanista na ako!

p.s. hindi na marunong tumugtog ang pinsan ko ngayon. Hindi naman siguro mali ang ginawa ko.

I MAKE FILMS. Wala akong alam sa pagsulat. O sa pagdederehe. O sa komposisyon, anggulo, o pag-iiskor. Pero dahil curious ako, sinubukan ko. Natuto ako. Below are posters and trailers of stage plays/films that have been produced  by COM(123)2 (section where i'm from). Some were under my direction.

 

I ADVERTISE. Last year, I was chosen to be part of the 25 finalists of a Public Service Ad Competition entitled 'maiBATAya' in DLSU-D. I was the first one that was called to come up on stage (assuming? random order naman daw). But 'twas a different feeling. Very tight ang competition so I was very lucky na napili ako. Appreciate more! Huge thanks to my mentor, Charisse de los Angeles. Hi ate cha! Salamat sa guidance at sa pagpili nito ...

I READ. I READ stands for I Read Everyday And Discover. We were tasked to make a reading advocacy program that, of course, would promote reading. "As a father and a mother of this family, I humbly affirm that all the members have actively, have compassionately taken part in this presentation. They offered halves of their lives ..." How I miss PR days. The iREAD program is a collaborative effort of two PR firms: Global Visibility & Public Power. It was the final activity in my Public Relations subject. Hence, I DO PR. Here is a promotional video of the campaign:

My years in DLSU-D surely have made me a better person. First day was unforgettable. Perfect combination of fortune (cute guys everywhere, cool profs) and misfortune (bipolar weather, "feelers"). Pero dahil curious ako, kabisado ko na ang buong univ. Sanay na akong makarinig ng mga feeling conyo at trying hard mag-english at makakita ng mga overdressed (define overdressed? separate entry for this one) tuwing wash day. Hindi naman ganun ang maging estudyante ng Cavite's premiere university. There's more to that. I am mighty proud to be a Communication student and to be a Lasallian. Sarap kaya! Try mo!

And in 2013 ..... I GRADUATE. :)

Saturday is black. Saturday I'm back.

Hi all. :)

Even though it's been so long, my love for you keeps growing strong (i, kumanta). This is the first entry of the year. Uunahin ko na ang magpasalamat sa mga sumusunod:

1. GOD - 'di muna ako hihiling ngayon, gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa lahat

2. MONICA PAULINE GIL - (sorry if i misspelled) upon reading her blog, i'm reminded na meron akong ibang mundo rito (as if it really is a different world). Gil the world!

3. SUMMER VACATION - dahil busy akong tao, madalang na lang ako makapag-post, at ngayong bakasyon na, may oras na ako. time permits :)

4. E. O. - as in Executive Optical (wow sponsor!) u saved me from drowning! salamat dahil may mata ako sa mga oras na ito. akala ko nasa underwater ako sa labo ng paningin ko. the ...

5. CYBERSILENCE - walang online sa mga friends ko, gusto ko magamit 'tong keyboard namin

6. PAY RENTS (pun intended) - eto na naman ako sa kakornihan ko, parents yun, 'yung iba kasi 'payrents' daw. kwhatevs! balik tayo sa parents, siyempre i'd like to thank them for continuously and responsibly paying our monthly internet bill bahahahaha!

Today is Black Saturday. Hindi ko naman idi-discuss kung bakit tinawag na Black Saturday. Walang something na black. Ay yung hair roots ko black na. Dark blonde natural brown ang tips. Artista kasi ako. Patay pa rin si Jesus. Nauna lang ako ng isang araw sa kanya. Bukas pa kasi siya 'di ba? Ngayon, nararamdaman ko na walang patutunguhan ang part na 'to, so i have to end this up bago pa ... :)

Last sem was toxic. I was a bit drained. Pero lagi ko sinasabi, it takes a lot more to bring me down. Di ako gagaya sa London Bridge. Di ako tulay, pader ako. (tumawa kayo!) I only have 2 weeks to spend quality time with my family. OJT ako this summer eh. Mature na kasi ako (wow very unlikely). Speaking of practicum, can't pre-register online, my account is still on-hold as I wasn't able to settle my fees on time. But if I believe in God the Father Almighty, I also believe that my account will surely be unlocked in time. At this point, some friend's chatting with me in facebook (yan may ol na) reporting about her lost phone. Itago na lang natin siya sa pangalang Chekwa. "Sa 3 taon nyang pakikipaglaban sa sakit na kanser, hindi n'ya na po kinaya at tuluyan nang sumuko ang pinakamamahal at antique kong telepono" ani Chekwa. Kawawa naman siya she can't keep in touch. Pero mabuti na lang phone lang ang nawala sa kanya kesa pekpek niya. Malaking dilemma yun. Gamit na gamit pa naman yun. Pinagpala sa babaeng lahat ang peg nun eh. Chekwa, I'm not trying to offend your vagina but I just have to make you realize that you're still lucky, girl.

So ayun na nga ... ('yung totoo, ano ba talagang ipinaglalaban ko rito?) Actually, marami akong ipinaglalaban sa buhay (e.g. Totoong bading si Piolo!!! Maniwala kayo sa'kin!). Sa ngayon mga 62 ang ipinaglalaban ko. Sa ibang entry ko na lang siguro iisa-isahin. Hanggang dito na lang muna siguro ako.

Naubusan na ako ng kwento. Nagugutom na ako. Kaso walang pagkain. Kagagaling lang ng kapatid ko sa cr. Tinutubol. Di na naman nag-flush ang gago.

Naiisip niyo ba ang naiisip ko?

A place where no one suffers, no corruption, no deprivation and no dominion over others. What a wonderful life indeed, living in a world where everything is at peace, both the mind and soul.

We have been dreaming of this, an ideal society, an ideal government, state and country. Idealism is the thing that many of us including me, long and hope for. Your imagination could be different from mine. You may have different images of a better place for everyone. Some of us may think that perfection could never be achieved. Maybe yes, maybe not. However, we could at least strive to become one, perfect.

Young men and women often think of what is best for today and for the future. Sweet words come out from those great ideals. Upon this stage of their lives, they often wonder what things could be best done in a particular situation. But look at the reality. As soon as these people grow, they undergo some changes. They become stronger, wiser or otherwise. Slowly, they would later on wake up that they have changed in a deteriorating fashion much to their astonishment. A common trend nowadays is moral degeneration. Things change in a way that sometimes we don't anymore feel it is already happening to ourselves.

Before, you have high solid principles. You envision the future to be good or perhaps, better through your efforts. But what is happening to you now? As you hurdle each stage of your life, you started to wield power and authority. Along with this, you also began to feel your self worth and began valuing self-dignity. You won't any longer allow anybody to trample upon your rights. Then, you develop that ego which we regarded as the sweetest word that is the hardest to swallow. Unconsciously, we become the very people whom we hated the most. Because now, I can see the tendency of a man. As he becomes greater and powerful, he forgets his roots. He forgets where he came from completely disregarding the past. He soon realizes that he is slowly losing his own self.

What then is your perception of power? Why are we often blinded by its brilliance? You may have levitated too high already such that there's no more enough space for you to think soberly. You may have become great and popular but in the eyes of others, you are just a wasted life. Where are your ethics now? Were they overshadowed by your thirst and greed for power? Were they engulfed by the manipulating authority that you now have? I can feel it as a sorry decay. It is calling out loud for some miracle to wake you up from that nightmarish thing and make you realize once more the purpose of your life. You were enslaved by power which you find hard to resist in the long run. Instead of you in control, your power begins to control you. Eventually, you just wake up that you are already falling flat to the ground. Then, wrenching pain started to bite and you are ushered onto reality.

I seem too nostalgic, even tragic to some extent. But, this is reality. I have no intention to offend any party. The truth is, you could hardly find few who may be exempted from the predicaments I am talking about. Take a good look around us. Feel our society, feel its agony. I fervently hope that our hearts and minds will be enlightened.

For today's generation, men and women lay a promising future. Most of us want change. It should then start from within us. We should allow power and self-gratification to consume our character. This is a challenge for us. When our time comes to cross the bridge and assume command, may we not be mislead by the power's ugly side.

I am only one but still I am one. I cannot do everything but still I can do something. And because I cannot do everything, let me not refuse to do the something I can do." - Edward Hale (1822-1909)

It is like, the world would tell me "JIN! I MISS YOU!" Then the world would be in pain of missing me. But the world does not know how much I have lost. That I would have wanted to be there but I am here.That while I am here, I am in guilt missing what I have been wanting to be with. And I see how the world falls apart. - Jin Lee

Prayer for Jin

All Powerful Father,
You know him so much better than I do. You know his sickness and the burdens he carries. You also know his heart. Lord, I ask you to be with him now. Let Your will be done in his life. If there's a sin that needs to be confessed and forgiven, please help him to see his need and confess. I pray for him because Your Word says I should pray for his healing. I believe you hear this earnest prayer from my heart and that it is powerful because of your promise. I have faith in you to heal him, but I also trust in the plan you have for his life. I pray for him because I love him. Really. Truly. Lord, I don't always understand your ways, and why he has to suffer like this, but I trust you. Please tell him I'm sorry because I can't be with him and all I can do is to pray for his recovery. I ask that you look with mercy and grace toward him. Nourish his spirit and soul in this time and comfort him with Your presence. Let him know You are there with him through his difficulty. And may you be glorified in his life and also in mine. Amen.

The off-the-wall challenge

Have you ever imagined yourself being locked up in a public comfort room for 30 minutes with nothing but your food? You may say that this is an odd experience but just as I was obliged to do so, I have learned that this is an exciting pursuit. I felt shy and self-effacing as I entered the restroom with a sundae and fries on my hand and I hated how people stared at me. I have been in a state of you could say disgust and repulsion. I knew I could not stand eating my food if there was a putrid smell that assails my nose, so I have had to refrain myself from doing so or else, I would have vomited. I had stayed there for 25 minutes causing my sundae to melt and the fries to lose its spirit. To sit and to ogle at my food were the things I have planned but my sweat glands were so active and I felt them filling up my whole body. I was nervous to know that I have to use the toilet so I decided to leave that secluded spot like nothing happened ... :p